I had grown up hating my skin. My teacher said it was lack of Melanin which colorizes the skin. I had prayed while growing up that I could get some Melanin and probably get my skin colorized. I do take long walks under the sun because I was told, the sun aids the skin to go dimmer. But these things never worked. I was born with the skin and I had to look for a way to live with it .
During my secondary school days, I was hated amongst my classmates, should I call it hatred or Ignorance? That’s how I will be brought out of class during the time of an afternoon hot sun and will be made to play hide and seek with them. Without closing my eyes, they knew I won’t ever be able to see them, so they kept pushing me around until I do fall down and cry.
Many times I had had crushes and many times I had watched them pick some other girls over me. I had tried makeup but I ended up looking horrible and scary. I had a very curvy shape but it was useless as nobody recognised it. I was always in the world of my own. My life a mirror of opposites to every other person’s own. Even my siblings didn’t find me attractive enough to tell the world I am their sister.
“Was there a thing about being albino?why can’t no one accept me?” I would always wonder in the cloven of my lonely room.
Then I realised one day that they haven’t accepted me because I hadn’t accepted myself. I wasn’t loved because I didn’t love myself enough.
“OMG Lola, what have you been doing to yourself?” I had screamed that night to myself. I took out a pen and googled out “How to love oneself.” I had penned down Important points and promised myself to go on with it.
I started by smiling and not shying away from the crowd, I then went on to look in the mirror everyday to appreciate myself.
“Oh babe, you have got such cute sexily blue eyes like diamonds. Oh look at your flawless long legs, your face is free from pimples. Wow look at your brownish lovely long hair. And your beautiful pink lips. Even your skin is flawlessly light, you are a different shade of a light girl.”
These were the words I used on myself everyday. I said these things to myself whilst smiling to the mirror. I then stopped wearing my buggy clothes that i used in hiding the colour of my skin from the eyes of the world and I burnt them and got myself very good sexily new clothes to flaunt my amazing skin and amazing shape. This was during my stay in the University, My friends had wondered how I changed and I explained to them that I just started knowing how beautiful I was. I discovered I was unique in a very special way, tho I discovered a bit too late, which made me not to enjoy my childhood but I was happy, I did discover my lost self.
My brown hair which I hated before because everyone had a black hair became my selling point. People had to start dying their hair to the color of my hair. I took very good care of it and hardly braided. I do just pack it in a knot and flaunt it around.
I, Lola who was the ridicule of all, who felt she wouldn’t amount to nothing, Is now a Married Medical Doctor with two amazing kids.
None of my kids has my amazing skin colour tho, should have taught them the principles of “loving Oneself” 😘